I am gloating. It's a bad BAD thing to do... but I just can't help it. My boss called in sick today and she sounds bad. Like she's suffering. Like... she has the same shit that knocked me on my ass. I can't even pinch an ounce of pity for her either. All I can do is just sit here with a smirk on my face and think, "It's about fucking time".

Before you shake your head... I spent last night driving home and until I went to sleep in tears. Because of the recent car lawsuit (to be explained later) and other issues I've been pretty tight on finances. To the bone, so to speak. So this illness couldn't have come at a worse time. The last three days I was out it was without pay. My boss *could* okay my use of vacation time, but it's her choice. She chose not to. I have worked my ass off for her, staying after hours and working from home. She has called me on my days off and generally just been a bitch to me. Still... I've supported her. So her telling me 'I have to find out from HR' and then holding off on telling me until the end of the day (knowing I'd be upset) really put a bad taste in my mouth. She knows my financial situation. It's not because I've spent money on bullshit things. Now I'm weighing my options on how to get by until my taxes come in. The part that angers me the most is she made some sort of third person decision. "THEY said I had to stick to policy". Fuck you. I know the policy. It's the supervisor's discretion. So now Karma slapped her for being such a cow to me and my gloating pretty much means I need to do some serious good deeds to not get hit again. Does buying Girlscout cookies from little girls pass as a good deed?

Everyday I see some good in my life. Good deeds, kind words, common courtesy. And every time I see this phenomena, the same thing happens... Absolutely fucking nothing. A man opens the door and the woman walks in. Does she say thank you? G-d forbid. Honey, Women's lib is a bunch of crap. Another good idea gone astray by Fembots from hell. Equal rights? I'm all for em. But what the hell does a man opening a door for a woman have to do with equal rights? I've held the door open for both genders. It's respect. Did I save them from some unholy task of opening the door themselves? Would they be stranded outside if I hadn't? No. What's in it for me? Nothing. That's right boys and girls, I actually did something for nothing. Or... did the smile on their face give me something back? I'm talking about Karma. I believe in that force more than I believe in the boogieman. When you do something bad.. Sometimes it slaps you right back. But sometimes, sometimes it waits. While other people may see it as a sign of luck, I know better. Because karma accumulates. When that sucker finally comes around, it'll bitch-slap you into oblivion. I don't want to be anywhere near when that force explodes. I've seen it happen too many times. Just think happy thoughts and don't let the assholes get to you.

We decided to go to Black Angus last night so I could get my chicken fix. It was delicious. While trying to enter the freeway I had to merge with another lane. This bitch decided she wasn't going to let me in, so I rolled down my window, started making a scene and then cut in. She was so pissed that she rode on the shoulder to get two cars ahead of me. Yeah, that's mature. After 20 minutes I finally got my revenge by driving by her. She was stuck behind some slow ass truck, grinding her teeth. Karma: You gotta love it!