I just don't know what to think anymore. No matter what the plans are this time of year always seems to make me sad. Tomorrow Jake and I are going to hang out with my super cool sister, her wonderful family, a cousin I haven't spoken to for years and G-d knows who else. Friday we are FINALLY getting to see Dina (and her wonderful hubby). Saturday we're going to meet up with a super cool chickI met through the Gamerchix on XBL (and her husband who I am sure is equally as cool) . Our holiday is overflowing with plans, fun people and places to go. So why do I feel some sort of holiday blues coming on? The only true expectation of anyone is to be me. I'm hanging out with my best friend and soul mate while sharing good times and hopefully great memories. New family members, old friends, new ones. Hell, we had a chance to squeeze in a day with Eileen too. Yet here I am, feeling a bit blue.

I think people have some sort of warped sense of emotions on these days. It's the holiday so of COURSE you should be cheery. I remember the years of being alone (my choice) and just wanting it to go away. Being too poor to buy a decent meal or too stubborn to sit with someone else's family. Walking through the hospital corridors I'm dealing with another sort of sadness. People who are too ill to be home, family who are hoping for the best and those who have no one... and their only comfort is the nurse who takes care of them.

To all my friends and family: My Thanksgiving wish is for you to be happy. I hope that you find the love you need, the comfort you desire and dreams you close your eyes to see. I am thankful for meeting each and every one of you. My life is fuller, happier and better because of it.

Shalom

Odessa

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