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[keywords: test] Testing the FunkinessMy server is driving me nuts. The other day it went down and I have been unable to post to my blog since then. This morning was able to sign on and the back end looks... odd. Really really odd. I have my server management company working on it so I'm hoping this is just one of their tests. Meanwhile I am still trying to post to see if it explodes. Part of me (a HUGE part, actually) wants to just get a new server. The only part that is hesitant is being lazy because that means I have to either look around or call my hosting company to see what's out there. Bah. Fuck it. If a new server will fix this issues then the lazy part of me will just have to buck up and move my ass. That is... after I finish my work. *looks to see IPs from work* Because, you know, I'd never screw around unless I was on break. Yeah, that's the ticket.
[keywords: server] August 26, 2009When Jobs CollideMy new coworker has yet to hit a smooth ride with me. It's MUCH better than before, but she still tends to think SHE makes the rules instead of it being an office where two people work and need to BOTH come to an agreement. This morning started off by some annoying resident once again walking in to grab water. This is the same one that told all the residents she was talking with 'Oh sure, the water is in there' as if my office is a break room. This started a sip N chat session that I finally had to nip in the bud. I tried to assert myself as the alpha female only to fail miserably. She left pissy and I felt guilty. Lovely. I was simply trying to get her to think of this as an office she is okay to come in and get water from, not a public water whole. When I mentioned it to my coworker she said, "Oh, I told them all they could come in and get water here. I guess I should have told you. Sorry." Yeah, that would have been nice. I explained how I had problems with people being inconsiderate in the past and she agreed it was rude. She also said she'd clear it up with the resident. I don't want to come off as some bitch, although if you give me a week I'd get an Oscar for being one.
[keywords: Work coworkers] August 25, 2009When Games and Values CollideToday I started talking about a game (Shadow Complex) and it's ties to a homophobic writer (Orson Scott Card). Rather, his personal views. I found quite a few articles on the subject and while the game is 'loosely' based on one of his shitty novels he did not write it. The storyline was written by a gay friendly comic writer (Peter David). The game itself has NO stance on gay rights. Homosexuality is never brought up. The story is 'loosely' based on a novel. Same universe, some of the same characters but predating the novel itself. The issue revolves around if Card will be getting royalties and therefore buying the game is supporting someone who is homophobic. So far the only article I found about him being paid is that he was given a lump sum for using the characters and that he he may or may not get money from it. It's a tough call since the guy's name is there but he had nothing directly to do with the game. So the question remains... Do we boycott everything that has something indirectly associated with people who are anti gay/racists/bigots/etc...? Do we try to silence those as they have tried to silence others? You can't demand freedom of speech if it only stands for ONE cause. It's like boycotting a bookstore that has his books. Sure, you aren't giving them your money... but you are also silencing the authors who work to support you. To enlighten those who don't know both sides. To educate those whose ignorance can be changed. I think the good part about this debate is that it is opening up discussion about gay rights and homophobia. Positive discussion is always good. Just remember that people of opposing views work together for something completely non related. It doesn't make their views any more valid or vile... but the outcome is something that makes no statement on either side. Who loses out in the end? **Totally swiped parts of this from a response on FB. Deal with it.
[keywords: games facebook xbl gay-rights fb] August 24, 2009So Then She Cried...This weekend I made Jake's mom cry. I didn't mean to but she was out of control with the drama and guilt. She was trying to justify selling the property and moving away, which I thought was a good idea. Not for the reasons, but that she just needed to try a fresh start. Ultimately it's up to her as to whether or not she's able to. The woman is fifty something years old and unable to keep her bills straight. This is after YEARS of Jake's grandparents supporting her and her brother. It only ended when they passed away and suddenly she was forced to actually try and be responsible. Yeah... ain't happening. After giving a few pissy reasons she started in on how she is a great mom because she didn't question my age (READ: older) or background (READ: Jewish) when Jake went to see me. She said she also didn't forbid him from moving out with me... which would have been laughable since he was an adult but whatever. Then she went on to suggest that we were living the 'high life' and she deserved it too. WTF!?! I was so annoyed at her comments that I politely laid into her. I left the comments about my age/background out so I didn't go ballistic. I did remind her that we are only able to afford our place and saving for things because I've lived here so long that the rent control is saving our asses. I also reminded her that Jake is saving for his school because he does NOT have financial support from his family and has been unable to get financial aid so far. I did it without mentioning that she spent all the money she got from Social Security without putting any money away for his college... but it was implied. She started in on how he's smart and her generation was left to work with their hands. I countered it with a reminder that she HAS a degree and her father paid for it. Yeah, it was a brutal discussion to say the least. In the end I let her talk to Jake and didn't tell him why I was steaming until afterwards. I figured she had enough without him laying into her. Lesson learned: Don't fuck with a Jew when it comes to guilt trips.
[keywords: jake family] August 21, 2009*Loads Gun*So help me G-d, if I have to listen to ONE MORE DAY of James Blunt's You're Beautiful I'm going to scream. It's like my coworker's MP3 player is stuck on over-played shitty pop songs lately. Of course there was a break in the madness when she played some Johnny Cash. I almost breathed a sigh of relief until she started singing along... in HIS tone. *slams head into desk* ANYWAY... I am looking forward to this weekend for the rest and next weekend because I took an extra day off. It looks as if I'm going to need it. Unfortunately Jake wasn't able to take the same day off so we're both having vacation days on different days. :/ It sucks because I was looking forward to just hanging out with him. Right now we're trying to juggle major purchases, bills and planning on the impending furlough so trips are going to be scarce. I still want to just get away together, even if it's just day trips. I really miss those. Hopefully we'll be able to take off for the holiday and do something, even if we don't get to visit his folks.
[keywords: Work jake weekend coworkers] August 20, 2009*Looks at Phone*I love working with snarky idiots. REALLY I do. This one department created a form for me to send to all my clinics so that when the department receives it they know it's from me. There's a part listed for contact name and number so that I can call the clinic if there is an issue. There's this one chick I'll nickname Bitchcow who seems to get a bug up her ass every once in a while and ask for things to be filled out on the forum that don't need to be. Today we ONCE AGAIN went over the 'why don't you fill out the contact information so I call you instead of them' discussion. So ONCE AGAIN I have to remind Bitchcow that the information is for ME and that she should know to call me when she sees the form. You know.. because she was one of the people who helped to create it for me. She starts in about how she needs to know it's from me again and I stop. After a few moments of silence: Me: "Ummm... Bitchcow? If you didn't know it was from me then HOW did you know to call me to tell me you wanted me to enter it?" Honest to G-d I'm going to find where her office is and smack the stupid out of her. It'll take a while... but it will be worth it.
[keywords: Work stupid-people-tricks] August 19, 2009Nothing Like a Quiet Day.......to make my BB panic about the numbers. I spent two days (and fourteen emails) trying to find what the reason is without typing the obvious. Finally the other BB did it for me, as well as three other doctors. It's summer. It's a slow time. It's going to be okay. I knew he still wasn't happy with it so I pulled some numbers and did a few reports for him to show where we are patient-wise. Ironically it proved his point. It's slower than the normal slow. I'm going to have a lot of annoyed people on my hands because of it... but that's not my problem. Now they have to show why it's slow. At this point I feel like driving sick people around in a convertible and letting them cough all over the general population. Okay, not really... but the convertible would be cool. Whoever said a sunroof was just like a convertible couldn't afford a convertible. *looks at sunroof and weeps*
[keywords: Work] August 17, 2009XBox Take Me AwayOn Sunday I started playing Assassin's Creed, readying myself for the new one that is coming out. I was immersed in the game when I noticed Jake standing there, staring down at me. It took me a second to realize how involved I was. It was like the world melted away. I have to admit I felt a little guilty. Jake's been so wonderful with my new hobby. I have to keep reminding him to kick me off when he wants to play or watch television. I've been playing Prototype for a while now and have hit a wall. The game itself is pure win. I love the character, the plot and the killing sprees. It's the events that get me. The movement events. I can't seem to get passed them. It's like eleven Deadpool achievements in one... except without the fun. I'm sure it will be one of the games I slowly chip away at, but not enough to piss me off. Friday night Jake and I hung out with a friend of ours from work. It was so good to see her. We talked work gossip and basically got caught up on what's been happening in our lives. It's been nice to hang out with friends and still have time to spend together. We got out of the movie night routine and I'm hoping to get back into it. Now if I can just get him to play some games with me...
[keywords: Friends boyfriend jake xbl gaming] August 14, 2009How Do I Put This Nicely.......NO. I went down to the cafeteria to check out the menu and stopped by the sandwich counter to chat with the guy there. I heard a slight buzzing sound and looked over to see a man in one of those electric wheelchairs roll up. He was older, but not too old. I smiled and said hello. Apparently he thought that was his opening and started to hit on me. At first I figured it was chit chat. I ordered a sandwich and was about to tell my friend what I wanted on it when he starts asking me what I do, where I work and then where I live. I gave vague answers as each one seemed more personal. He had this super creepy smile on his face and switched looking at my ass and tits like he was deciding which one he wanted to lock onto first. Because I was at work I couldn't give a simple 'fuck off' response. When the guy moved on to if I had a boyfriend and where did he work I started looking at my friend for help. He was slowly making the sandwich... smiling. Apparently my uncomfortable responses amused him to no end. Asshole. I practically grabbed my sandwich and hopped away, leaving mister speed demon to his next victim. And how was YOUR day?
[keywords: Work creepy-people] August 13, 2009Reading is GudI'm amazed at how many people can't seem to read signs these days. It's almost as amazing as how many of these people seem to think I know every person on this floor and what their hours are. Right as you get out of the elevator it lists where the main rooms are that people come up here for. You have to pass it to go into our section. It never fails that someone decides to totally ignore the sign, see that my door is open and walk in to ask where such and such is or what their hours are. Never mind that I'm on the phone. I've had a few people get really rude when I asked them to hold on. Today this woman started back talking to me, getting loud. I asked the person to hold and told her to follow me. I led her to the elevator, stopped and tapped the fucking sign that she passed. Then I said, "Next time, if you choose to totally ignore the signs telling you where to go at LEAST have the courtesy to wait until someone is off the phone before having them take you to the room. Being rude and loud with your badge showing is NOT a good idea. Got it?" She began to be bitchy, thought better of it and apologized. Stupid cow...
[keywords: Work] August 12, 2009District 9 is AWESOMELast night Jake and I went to see a preview of the movie District 9. It was fantastic. I would (and will) recommend this to all of my friends. Hell. I'll even recommend this to all of my pseudo friends who never talk to me but have me on their friend's list. The movie had a little bit of everything mixed in it and left both Jake and I smiling and wanting more. My coworker and I watched a trailer for it right before I left and sadly it just doesn't do it justice. It made it look like some shoot em up alien movie. It's so much more. I don't want to give anything away, so you'll have to trust me on this. I love that the actors weren't the typical pretty boy toys and bimbos. I love that the cast was done in South Africa instead of the usual United States town. I love that the creatures weren't made to look like you'd expect. The action was just enough to satisfy the thrill seekers but not so much that you felt like you were watching Independence Day 2. The love story was subtle. It tugged on your heart, but didn't' make you want to talk about how it reminded you of some random chick flick. There was drama. There were bad guys. There was everything you'd want and expect in a movie about aliens on Earth. But then... somewhere within the movie it turned you on your ear and made you sit on the edge of your seat. It made you blink and wonder what just happened. And it made you want more. *sigh* I'd watch this movie again. I'd buy this movie. Blockbusters be damned... THIS is the movie of the summer. See it. Talk about it. Thank me.
[keywords: Movies jake datenight movienight] August 10, 2009And Who'd Want to?It's funny how many times I've used the 'you can't choose your family' line to friends when they complained about various home life issues. This past weekend I played catch up with my brother, met his wonderful wife, their beautiful little girl and then added some more quality time with my older sister and her adorable daughter. Jake and I met them for lunch (they were trying to fit two weeks worth of vacation into one) and had a blast. When we left I felt like my life was a little more grounded. A little more normal. I am a sister. A sister-in-law. An aunt. I may not be hanging out with the whole family but I am really happy with the slice of home I have. It took me so long to get to this point. I'm still stumbling. Still hoping. Still working out the kinks. Part of me felt like it was a normal weekend, just hanging with the brood. It was what I left with and what kept me smiling all weekend. I don't regret the path I took. I am just glad it curved back around so I didn't miss out on the best part. I just hope next time it will be longer. Jake's family is going through their own issues. They're thinking of moving to another state, which might be a good move... but still leaves Jake with many decisions to make. I love him and will stand by him through it all. I would just like for him to get a breather. At least he really liked my family. Now he knows where my sense of humor comes from. *grins*
[keywords: Life jake family] August 07, 2009Tempting... REALLY TemptingMy friend is getting a house *crosses fingers/toes/eyes and knocks on wood* and I am really thinking about looking into it. I've been living in a tiny apartment for so many years and it's been one of my dreams to get a home. Central air. A fireplace. An actual living room. Central air. A washer and dryer. Enough of a distance from my neighbors that I can't tell when they are putting up a picture. A dog. Oh man... I'd love to have a dog. Space for our cats to run around and just.... SPACE. I've got great credit. I worked my ass off to get it. Yet here I am... sitting in an old apartment and only dreaming of hopping into a newer one. This morning my friend and I chatted about the layout and all I could think of is what we'd do with it. A work out spot for Jake in the garage. An actual dining area to sit and have meals. One room for guests and another for the computers. My own sink. Not having to wait for the bathroom. GAH! It's those little things that mean so much when you know you could totally have it... but don't. It's time to either start looking or add this to the shoulda/coulda/wouldas in my life.
[keywords: Life Friends shopping] August 05, 2009I've Been Rick Rolled at WorkWith all the jokes about this guy you'd think the song would be more of an annoyance than a 'hey, let's listen to peppy 80s music'. Yet here I am... listening to this song, compliments of my coworker. Ah yes, now it's slow 80s music time. You know... the kind that makes you want to nod off. My coworker's off key humming is the only thing keeping me awake. When I say 'off key' I am talking ONE key. She has this monotone voice that reminds me of Madeline Kahn in Blazing Saddles. And now it's on to James Blunt singing You're Beautiful. I can't believe I said it was okay for her to play her music in the office. *slams head into desk* My report was up for debate again today. Honest to G-d, I would just like ONE day where things went smooth. In other news... I went to work wearing two different types of shoes today. One was at least half an inch shorter too. I walked into the hospital and instead of the steady clomping (I make those halls echo, baby!) there was some uneven clunking. I stopped, looked down and couldn't even move. I looked up just in time to see a woman looking down to see what I was so mortified about. She glanced up, our eyes met, and she laughed. I said, "It's gonna be a day!" and started walking. At least I made someone's day.
[keywords: Work] August 04, 2009When PMS goes NUCLEARYesterday was one of the WORST bouts of PMS that I have had to deal with yet. I felt so miserable. So depressed. So angry. It was insane. I was pissed at having a death in Prototype (one achievement was for not dying). I was pissed because I couldn't get passed any of the Peggle challenges. I was pissed because I felt like I was hitting a wall gamewise. My goal. My HUGE goal for this year was to learn the console. Last night I started to melt into a huge depression over the idea that I hit my limit. Workwise I was still outdone by my coworker trying to tell one of the doctors I didn't show her something instead of admitting that she forgot to do it. I was down because I haven't heard from my brother or sister about meeting up, down about... EVERYTHING. This morning I woke up feeling a lot better. Not great, but not like the world was ending. The night before Jake said he'd help me with some games and gave me a good pep talk. It's times like this when I am really grateful for him putting things in perspective. Now lets just see if I can get through the rest of the week...
[keywords: pms xbl gaming] August 03, 2009Back Up the Embellishing TrainThis morning my coworker asks if it's okay for her to take some time off during the holidays. Sure. No problem. She asks about what mine will be. I comment about hoping Mr. Nosy will be able available so he can do my report for me. She has been too busy to even talk to about it and I have to completely revamp the instructions with all the changes. She mentions how it would be nice for him to do hers since she is so busy. I agree and add that it would be a lot easier since she has so many more things that require a lot of time. With that she tells me she'll cc me in the email to our boss making that suggestion. I mention that I don't like to suggest it since the last time it blew up on me. I start working on a project and she decides to read off what she wrote. She basically told our boss she discussed it with me and we felt it would be better if Mr. Nosy came to do it since it would be impossible for me to do. WTF!?! I never said impossible. Hell, I just agreed that she has a lot on her plate. Suddenly I'm a co-conspirator in getting Mr. Nosy to do her job. *facepalm* I don't know WHY I even walk into these things. After choking on water she changed the wording to say 'difficult'. I still feel like my boss is going to raise her brow at this. But hey! The good part is she'll be taking time off.
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