I have nothing to say today. That is, I have nothing I want to put down into print. The day I have nothing to say is the day they pull the plug. I can be such a chatty Cathy... and yet still not want to share. Chit chat til the cows come home... but the in depth shit stays within. Part of it is a hard lesson learned on what happens when you share too much and let people in too deep. I have a few close friends that really know who I am. Ironically they're all male and not into gossip. Maybe that's why I trust them. Also, they know how to give rational advice when I am anything but.

There's still a lot on my plate right now, but it's getting better every day. I'm trying to get back into chatting with friends, going out with friends and finding that happy medium that Jake and I had. This weekend we are going to see my friend from Highschool and possibly another friend from work. It's nice to be able to travel, visit friends and then just veg at home. There are so many things I want to do together... but the main thing is just doing things together. I almost wish it were six months from now. In six months we should be back to normal. No worries. No big issues. No working through the daily routines of working to make it work. I know that any relationship is always a work in progress. But we used to be a well oiled machine. We were comfortable with just being with each other and whatever we did was bonus. Now I'm still feeling the gears as they move. It's not as bad as when Jake first came home, but there is definitely a motion that needs to be worked on. I'm trying to get back to the point were it's okay. Where any issues will be worked out in due time and I'm not going to worry because we have forever to work on them. *smiles*

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