Since Jennafer's death I have been going through a roller coaster of emotions. From losing her to dealing with her ex boyfriends who seem to think showing up on NoChickTrix and proclaiming their love is a good thing to do. If she were alive they would not have dared invade her special place. More importantly they've tried to make NCT into some sort of Jennafer Shrine for their own amusement. At first I was too crushed to do anything about it. But I've slowly come to terms with her death and decided that I won't let people who hurt her while she was alive suddenly claim to only have her best interest in death.

The thing about posting your thoughts on the web is that people read them. It's all fine and dandy until the person you've tried to be civil with on the phone reads your thoughts about him on the web. To my defense I had no desire in a pissing match over something that happened before and would change nothing. Jennafer is dead. One let her down and broke her heart by getting hooked on crack, the other hit her and terrified her. Now I'm left trying to shoo them out the door and keep a civil tone while not breaking down from being reminded of my loss. In the midst of this I am trying to strike up a friendship with her aunt, who seems like a lovely lady who brought happiness to her. The drama never stops I guess. I dodge it, duck from it and run from it... but somehow it seems to stick like gum on a hot day to the bottom of my shoe.

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