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Skirting the Dream (March 15, 2006)

I was going to respond to the comments my previous post in the comment section, then went a tad overboard. Besides, it's easier to read here and I look like I'm updating. :P

Two everyone who commented on the previous post: Thank you all for the kind words. *hugs* How ironic that the people I actually say made my time on the web worth it commented. I'm just so frustrated with nothing working. It's more about everything that I like is not what any NCTers like. Someone suggests I start an NCT Flickr group, then it dies. I suggest other things that interest me, but no one takes a second look. I'm out of ideas at this point. It's also my disilusion with meeting people. Between the jerks who sign on with one thing in mind: Insults... to the person who vows to be a friend to the end and is no where to be seen.

Thaum1el: You're not a lousy poster. I'd rather have someone post when they see something that interests them than ten thousand LOLs. You also start new threads, which I have always been grateful for. You're one of the sweetest guys I know.

Dynamitt: Sweet sweet Dyna. Heart of gold. I don't mind if Imeem is not for you. It's not like I am basing my friendship on people who sign up, I just wanted people to like the same things as I do. If people don't then it's not their fault... but I am lost at who to share what I like with, you know?

Jules: Cow. I kid. I kid. I know you're busy. Hell, I helped to get a lot of that 'busy' over to you. Now two friends are together and two members are AWOL. Hehe. Seriously though... You're always there for me and understand what I'm saying.

Dustin: (Everyone, this is Dustin. A great guy I met at IMEEM.) I can't imagine you not having lifelong friends banging at the door. You're such a good guy who knows just what to say. I'm not sure of what I will be doing on the web in the future, but I won't go completely off of it. I'd miss my friends too much. Especially the ones who commented here. They've always been wonderful.

Al: You know, you're the only person who took the Moderator title and didn't leave. I was beginning to think that it was a curse. You're also a wonderful and honest guy who I look forward to seeing in person. *hides pity pot* I know... I shouldn't be so down about it. But this isn't just a tantrum. I've been feeling this way more and more. Hell, I made NCT to be cheered up when I felt all was lost. That's why it hurts so bad. It shouldn't be the place that lets me down... or makes me feel like doing a chore by updating it. But the echoes get me to me. I simply don't know where to go with NCT anymore. Part of it is knowing I don't have any more time to devote to it than I already give. Like I told Dustin on his Imeem blog: Dreams hurt when they're something that is always just out of reach. That's when I start to question if it's worth dreaming.

Posted by Diva at March 15, 2006 07:06 AM

Comments

Thanks for the kind comments Odessa, I suppose the Internet will always be a reflection of this little thing we call life. We grow and change, and hopefully change together when it happens. Sometimes we grow apart.

As far as taking NoChixTrix on a journey to the next level. Maybe you just need to recruit a geek or two! I'd be happy to contribute any creative or brainy feedback! :)

Keep taking good care of yourself. And when things get hard your friends will be here for you.

Posted by: Dustin at March 15, 2006 09:09 AM

Told you it wasn't a curse. :P

And I know it's not a tantrum. There are times I feel the same way with my sites. *hugs tight*

Posted by: Big Al at March 15, 2006 10:00 PM

The thing about the NCT reflections that has always made it difficult for me to comment on it is you know how I reacted to talklouds problems. Any stick to it advice from me would sound conniving I would think. Besides, we talked it out on a land line. You know how paranoid I am of this intarweb thing.

Posted by: Bane at March 16, 2006 01:04 AM