 |
« February 2006 | Main | April 2006 » March 30, 2006And The Verdict Is?I wanted Friday off to do some errands, but my boss' new ONE person off at a time rule fucked that up. It's not like we're a small department. She offered a compromise and would let me leave early. When I told her the latest I could make my hair appointment was 12:30 she balked. FUCK. Now she says that IF it's slow and IF everyone else shows up I can go. I am taking the chance and not cancelling my appointment. We're also celebrating her birthday so I'm hoping she'll be in a giving mood and just let me go. Meanwhile, Jake has the whole day off and is going to see Slither AND Brick. Butthead.
[keywords: Work boss holiday] March 28, 2006It's Raining!It's such a refreshing change to hear the rain. The air is fresh and everything is green. Plus I don't have to wash my car. :P My friends always tease me about preferring the winter over summer, especially in California. But I was born here, so its not like I CHOSE this place for the weather. If I had a choice I would have lived in Seattle. I'd have to see what the summers were like. I loathe the heat. I'm miserable in it. So is anyone around me.
[keywords: Weather California rain] March 23, 2006Meme 5s Tag!I've been tagged! Yay! 5s: 2) 5 Things You Can Do 3) 5 Things That Scare You 4) 5 Things You Love 5) 5 Things You Hate 6) 5 Random Facts About You 7) 5 Things You Want To Do Before You Die Now tag 5 others! :)
[keywords: cyberculture meme 5s 5-Things] March 20, 2006Taking the Rav4 For a SpinJake and I decided to take the car for a spin. We hopped onto PCH and drove up the coast til we ran out of highway... literally. I didn't want to stop. As much as I loved my Matrix this car blows it out of the water. I didn't realize how much I missed a quiet car until we drove in this. I had gotten used to speaking up and repeating myself both on the cellphone and to Jake. It was nice to sit and talk while enjoying the beautiful scenery. People always talk about coming to LA for vacation. You haven't seen the best part of California until you've taken a drive up the coast.
[keywords: day-trip Toyota Rav4 New-car] March 18, 2006My New 2006 Rav4 SportWednesday I took my car in for a 15,000 mile tuneup. I was at 17,000 and it was running like shit. I arrived at 8:30am and was told they'd call me around 11am. Of course I forgot any reading material. After wandering around the new car section I ran across a really nice salesman ("N") and chatted with him for a bit. I was checking out the 2006 Rav4 Sport and he asked if I wanted to drive it. I figured what the hell and the journey began. I love my Matrix, but it's a tad loud for me. I swore my next car would be quieter. We drove the 4 cylinder first, which had a bit of difference in the sound. Then we went for the V6. Oh my G-d. I was in heaven. It purred. It glided. It went really, really fast. By the time we got back I was almost writing out the check. I called Jake who did some quick research and all sites gave it wonderful reviews. As we pulled into the dealership I got a call from the service area. They found some problems. We're talking over $600 worth of problems. "N" and I started laughing. I asked them to hold that thought and we went in to see what deal they could give. After checking the car they found frame damage from the accident, which I had suspected. I knew those fuckers should have totalled it. "N" still offered me bluebook value and a deal I couldn't pass up. The only hitch? I wanted a different color and there were only two other cars in the whole region. I had two colors to choose from: White or Barcelona Red. I went with the red. Now I had to wait for them to bring it from the dealership over 100 miles away. Thursday finally arrived and I felt like an expectant father. I got updates at work throughout the day. When the guy finally left I was told he'd be back after 8pm. Jake and I arrived at the dealership and the signing process began. What's funny is that Hasan, who sold me the Matrix, got a promotion and was doing the financing. He was the sweetest guy. He still remembered how I asked if there was a way to wrap something around the engine to make it quieter. I'll never live that baby down. An hour later I hopped into my brand new car and drove home to go to bed. Friday morning I hopped into the Rav4 and drove to work. I reached the onramp for the 405 South and noticed a semi pacing me as the lanes merged. I stepped on the gas to get in front and hit warp speed. I had to slow down and swerve to miss the cars in front. The truck driver must have thought I was insane. I can't believe how much power this car has. I still need to get used to it. I also need to get used to the fact that it's much larger than my Matrix. I tried parking in one of the usual spots at work and the parking attendant stopped me. He had this "Are you on crack?" look on his face. Nope, just blonde.
[keywords: Toyota Rav4 New-car Matrix dealership] March 15, 2006Skirting the DreamI was going to respond to the comments my previous post in the comment section, then went a tad overboard. Besides, it's easier to read here and I look like I'm updating. :P Two everyone who commented on the previous post: Thank you all for the kind words. *hugs* How ironic that the people I actually say made my time on the web worth it commented. I'm just so frustrated with nothing working. It's more about everything that I like is not what any NCTers like. Someone suggests I start an NCT Flickr group, then it dies. I suggest other things that interest me, but no one takes a second look. I'm out of ideas at this point. It's also my disilusion with meeting people. Between the jerks who sign on with one thing in mind: Insults... to the person who vows to be a friend to the end and is no where to be seen. Thaum1el: You're not a lousy poster. I'd rather have someone post when they see something that interests them than ten thousand LOLs. You also start new threads, which I have always been grateful for. You're one of the sweetest guys I know. Dynamitt: Sweet sweet Dyna. Heart of gold. I don't mind if Imeem is not for you. It's not like I am basing my friendship on people who sign up, I just wanted people to like the same things as I do. If people don't then it's not their fault... but I am lost at who to share what I like with, you know? Jules: Cow. I kid. I kid. I know you're busy. Hell, I helped to get a lot of that 'busy' over to you. Now two friends are together and two members are AWOL. Hehe. Seriously though... You're always there for me and understand what I'm saying. Dustin: (Everyone, this is Dustin. A great guy I met at IMEEM.) I can't imagine you not having lifelong friends banging at the door. You're such a good guy who knows just what to say. I'm not sure of what I will be doing on the web in the future, but I won't go completely off of it. I'd miss my friends too much. Especially the ones who commented here. They've always been wonderful.
[keywords: Internet Friends nct Imeem writers-block decisions members] March 13, 2006I'm At a LossI don't belong here. I've always had that 'outside of the bubble' feeling, but never as much as tonight. I've spent hours trying to find fun things to share with people and hardly get a peep anymore. When I do it's almost like a courtesy cough. Tonight really did it for me. I was trying to get a friend to sign up for Imeem and got hit with comments like 'it's shit'. Someone doesn't like bubbles and it's a shitty program. I admit would be nice to have more active members, but it's not like the whole program isn't worth trying. Whatever. I think what angered/upset me the most is that it's yet another thing I tried to share with people that got shot down. I don't expect to be the kind of person who finds the newest and greatest websites. I just wanted to have fun with people while finding new sites to enjoy together. The whole idea of levity links on :nct: was to get people active. News links to get people talking. Rant, same thing. I feel like a total failure right now. Everything I tried hasn't worked. My dream of meeting new people on the web seems to be coming to a close. I've met some really nice people, and some not so much... But many of the friendships never fully materialized. People I thought had become lifelong friends faded away. Members came and went in the blink of an eye and people who called NCT home moved on without looking back. Part of me wants to just shut everything off and never look back. Honestly I don't think anyone would feel a loss. For me it's finally admitting what I've felt for so long. I just don't fit in. I never have. The story of my life.
[keywords: Internet nct decisions] March 10, 2006The *Other* Side of FamilyIt's been so many years since I've had to deal with family issues I'm at a loss. :Jake:'s mom is just being ridiculous. All I can do is stand beside Jake and support him through this time. I can understand her missing him and his infrequent calls obviously aren't enough to sustain her mood swings. At this point I don't think daily calls will make her happy. This morning we did our usual routine of messing around with the computer while getting ready for work. Jake went off to get ready and came back to check a new IM. Suddenly he yells, "Oh what the fuck!" His mother sent him a "guilt text message"
After staring at each other in total disbelief I tried my hardest to be supportive. Ten minutes later the phone rang. He looked at the Caller ID (thank G-d for that) and sure enough it was his mom. We were just leaving the house and shook his head and let it ring. She hung up. He decided that he would call her over the weekend. He didn't want to be upset at work and frankly he didn't want her to think that acting out would get a result. It's like she's in her terrible twos. It's hard to know what to say at times. It's been so long since I've even dealt with family matters. I know it would be nice to talk to his mother more, but every time he calls her it ends up being a guilt fest. I can't blame him for not wanting to spend his time off being chewed out. The other day he spent 45 minutes of his hour lunch chatting with her and then tried to get off the phone so he could eat his lunch and be back in fifteen minutes. She got offended. It's a no win situation. I used to dream about moving to Texas and finally having a family. We would meet up for a girls night out or brunch and just chat about everything and nothing at all. Now all I can think about is moving just close enough for emergencies and holidays. Welcome to family life...
[keywords: boyfriend jake family mother-in-law] March 09, 2006*Cries*I feel... old. After a lovely day at work that started off with sitting down at my desk and hearing: BOSS: It's all wrong! Five minutes later: BOSS: The info is wrong. After I fixed the error on the DRAFT that I left for her to see it was better. I finally got home and click on my Stumble Upon account to view a message that was sent. Unnamed Stumbler: 4:07pm you are one hot mom! WTF!?! Okay, he's 18 yrs old so the age difference is one thing... but a mom? Suddenly my biological clock went into overdrive and I felt really old. And down. And... NOT where I should be. I'm 38 so I guess he's matching the age with normal people who are married with children. This should not be bugging me like it is... but I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes and just.. GAH!
[keywords: old stumble-upon SU biological-clock] March 07, 2006EvilishlyYesterday was an eeeeearly morning for me. I work up at 5am, sprinted out the door at 6am to be at work at 6:20am. That's when the fun started. I had asked the building liaison (no joke, that's his title) if there was anything I needed to do since I was coming in before 6:30am. His response was to remember to turn off my computer for the weekend power outtage. Okay.... I show up, park, take the elevator to the lobby and jump into the next elevator. I pushed my floor and nothing. No light. Okay, so I tried the other side. Nothing. Then the doors closed and I panicked. after hitting every button without a response I managed to lean against L and the door opened. WTF!?! I went over to the security desk and told him the elevator wasn't working. He responded, "Oh, they don't turn on this early in the morning." My jaw dropped. He walked with me to the elevator and swiped his magic card so I could go to my office. After letting the IT in, and helping restart all the computers I shot off an email to the liaison guy letting him know the elevators didn't work at that hour. I figured he didn't know. His response? "Oh yeah. You have to let me know if you are coming in early so I can give you access with your card." No shit, Sherlock...
[keywords: Work elevator] March 05, 2006Another One Bites the DustAnother site dropped :nct: from their referrers. Either that or I'm not showing because I'm not sending them enough hits. It's a porn site so the traffic is usually hit and run anyway. Part of me wants to just delete the adult section (minus the humor) and be done with it. The site will be slow but any hits will be for the content and not the photos. Ah content, that's where it gets tricky. Lately I've been sticking to my private blog (here) and posting news stories on Imeem. It's like :nct: has a little less of me every day and it kills me to think about it. My mind is swirling with ideas, some good and some not so much. What started out as a place for me to rant to the world ended up being news links and a forum for people to chit chat. Nothing too deep, nothing too hot topic. Whenever the meat of the discussion gets going someone has to get their feelings hurt and I have to make a choice: Step in or let it ride. Lately I've been letting it ride. I long for the days where it was alive with content from the members and not just me and :jake: Now those days are pleasant surprises instead of the norm. That's not the way a forum is supposed to work. I've been thinking about ways to make it better, or at least less a burden. Just posting news links without a rant is one. Finding someone to help with the rants is another. It can't keep going like this. At this rate it's going to turn into a quiet place where the Admin's name sits and waits... while doing everything else but be on the board. Members there in username only, not in heart. I'll shut it down before it gets to that... If only I knew what the final hint will be.
[keywords: nct Imeem nochicktrix] March 03, 2006The Key Word is BaneBane created a page so you can easily search by keywords to view my rants. I am sooo happy *points to menu* It's right over there.
[keywords: Bane praising_bane keywords] March 01, 2006Dueling EmailsMy job hit a new low today. After two hours of bickering my boss and I were reduced to bitching at each other via emails. The fact that she's less than ten feet away and in full view of me made it even more ironic. The whole thing was over some work she told me to put aside, then asked why it wasn't done. I finally reminded her of that and she gave me the classic "oh yeah" look. I could almost hear the wheels churning as she tried to think of a way to turn it around on me. In the end I won this round... Until she started in on me about how she wanted it to be taken care of so it didn't happen AGAIN. Oy vey. Ten minutes later she grabbed her coat, smiled and said, "We made it through another day!" As she walked away I yelled, "BARELY!" and listened to her laugh on her way out the door. *grumbles* I wasn't kidding...
[keywords: Work boss] |
|
  
 
 
 
 
|
|
